Monday, October 15, 2018

In My Sleep

I dreamed last night.  In it, we were both being disagreeable with one another.  I could not make out the reason for the shouting or the sharp tones.  I screamed, “I ain’t leaving even if the walls fall down around us.” Walking towards the door you laughed, “I will be sure to send someone over to dig you out.” I heard the back door close and the garage door rise.  I awoke or maybe came to but was unable to open my eyes. There was a mild sense of panic.  I heard the ceiling fan hum but did not feel the breeze that it was capable of creating.  I heard the sounds of the fish tank bubbles coming from the den.  I heard the aging hard drive of my computer spinning at my desk.  What I couldn’t hear was the soft sound of your breathing as you slept next to me.  I couldn’t feel the warmth of your body on the sheets next to me.  My subconscious must have alerted me of a missing part of my conscious world and shook me from my slumber.  You were not next to me. Your spot in our bed was cold.  I sat up, almost jumped up.  I was in panic mode waiting to hear the garage door close as you drove off.  Instead, I heard the toilet flush!  By the time I laid back feeling a sense of relief, you curled back up into my arms unaware of how the rush of water had averted my subliminal meltdown.  I squeezed you tightly as we gently slipped off to sleep. Good Morning Sweetheart.  My love for you is of more than this world can hold.  Glad the tomb is empty.

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

He Solved Our Mystery

It is an inconceivable idea that one mind can possibly know another. It is a mystery.  In spite of this, I revel in how we have been able to become “just us.” I no longer try to anticipate, to counter, to even attempt to advance on your “mystical mind.”   My heart has mastered what my head over analyzes.  I find peace and comfort in knowing there is no doubt that our souls are reconciled in heaven.  I live off the love that God uses to transform you and me into us. I let your heart consume my willing spirit realizing this is only possible because God has taught me how to trust what my ears and eyes don’t recognize. My heart wraps it all up for my soul to present to Him.  I pray He approves.  I love you sweetheart.