I Don't Do Well When I'm Alone

I'm sorry I don’t do well when I am alone. When you are not here I tend to get lost in indecision.  I over analyze everything.  Scrambled eggs or over easy paralyzed me at the refrigerator.  By the time I got to the stove the kitchen was 10 degrees cooler.  I scrabbled because I knew that is what you would want.   When you were away I couldn’t write a word even though my thoughts were full of you. Got to the airport an hour early. I stood there waiting for you feeling anxious. I couldn’t wait to hold you and whisper in your ear something poetic and profound that would make you just melt into my arms.  I melted into yours before I could get the words out.  The sight of you coming towards me put life in perspective.  You are the life I can’t live without. My life begins and ends with you.  God knows and I am believing in His plan for me for you for us.  I pray without ceasing that my words can keep our hearts open to each other when the world would prefer they stay closed. I hope you don’t mind how I love.  Glad the tomb is empty…

God Said So

I was doing my prep work for the dinner, dicing greens peppers and onions. You swept (more like floated) through the kitchen without saying a word. I felt you before I saw you. Just a glimpse of you out of the corner of my eye put my fingers in danger. Your presence in my world is overwhelming at times. Nevertheless, there is no questioning of my sanity for what has to be impractical thoughts and feelings of you that creep into my day. I still “pine” for you when you are ...not near. Is it because your love flows through my veins and strengthens every beat of my heart? I love you Janet. God said so, the covenant says so. So, I make it so.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride. So, I love you because I know no other way than this, where I does not exist, nor you. So close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Psalm 63:3 Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you.