Thursday, December 26, 2019

My Joseph Day

December 20th has been my self-proclaimed “Joseph” day. 50 years ago, I thought my tranquil childhood had just been shoved down a hole. The adults in my life made decisions that put my spirit in the dark and left it there. Having never know darkness I was not sure if this was the natural order of things, so I adapted never knowing that light was waiting for me. I carried a lot of weight for many years on this day. Then a brother invited me to a 6:00 am men’s meeting called the “Men’s Fraternity” at Concord Church. I was skeptical at first, brothers getting up to meet at 6:00 am every Tuesday morning, naw. The place was packed! I met some brothers that wanted to heal, they wanted to be better men, fathers, and husbands. I also wanted to be a better son. It took a “minute” but I committed because the brothers were committed and I had never seen or felt anything like this. Part of the “graduation” process was to complete a Manhood Plan. I poured it all out on paper and submitted it. God spoke to me in that plan. Now this day reminds me that He had a plan for my life that I could not see in the dark. “He meant it for good.” My prayer is that I am a better man today than yesterday. A better man for Him that gave me peace on this day. A better man for my family that gave me love through it all, and a better man for the next brother that may feel like he is in a hole. God's got a plan for your life. Glad The Tomb Is Empty

Wednesday, December 18, 2019

The Path to Her Heart


The path to her heart was filled with my own insecurities.  The road blocks were created by my self-loathing. I weathered the storm of previous hurtful encounters well before I met Janet.  I remember the disappointment, the pain, the embarrassment, and humiliation that comes with rejection in a private forum that becomes public. In hindsight I don’t think I would want the pain of it all to be lessened.  It was that pain that pushed me to Him who explained that I was on the right road. I was on the road to Him. In Him, I found her. I found us. I love you sweetheart! Glad the tomb is empty.
“A woman's heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek Him just to find her.”― Maya Angelou

Teaching Me to Love

Thank you, Lord, for teaching me how to love her. You know there are times when I am unable to comprehend where you were taking us. I resist and attempt to reconfigure the script to fit my comfort zone. There were times when I forgot that the struggle is not with flesh and blood but principalities that seek to alter the composition of the foundation of my family, my world (this world). Oh, how I love this woman. Continue to teach me. Continue to make me stronger. Continue to have your way with me making me more than I think I can be. Continue to teach me. Continue to show me new ways, different ways to love her. Show me how let her see you in my love. Help me to love her more each day. Help me to love more, and more, and more. I love you sweetheart. Glad the tomb is empty.